Lame post is lame

It’s always a mandatory thing for me to write some lame arse posting about last year, but first I’d like to say : HAPPY NEW YEAR 2015! Yeaaaah, I’ve been a very bad bIogger last year, the last post I wrote was in February 2014? That’s unforgivable, but then again, I don’t have a reader so that’s kinda okay.

2014 was a smooth year, really smooth. I might just say that I became more mature? Like age wise, cuz I’m almost twenty, yeah, being almost twenty is a good thing. But really, I felt like 2014 was too smooth. I didn’t fucked up my grade again like 2013, classes got easier or maybe my brain leveled up. My GPA, finally, LIKE FINALLY, I reached the third number, the magic digit that I haven’t got in almost 3 years of my college life, yes I’m a shitty student, for god saken I don’t like studying.

Though I don’t like studying but I don’t want to disappoint my parents too. So for the GPA I gained to this day, thank you god.

I won’t talk about love again, because what is love, really. I learned something, living a happy life like this, I didn’t even need to like someone in a romantic way. But then again, I used to post about love, omg what did I knew about love then. Even now, I don’t really understand it. So yes I’m living the problematic love problem behind because from scale one to ten, love didn’t even deserve number in my priorities.

Last year, I kinda left kpop for a while? Like semi-hiatus for a couple months. I even said that “ah kpop is dead in me”, and with all the bad news, I didn’t feel like coming back. I still managed to watch and listen several things, but not in the same mannerism? I watched a lil bit of running man, roommate, listened to 2ne1, etc. But, that’s just it, it’s not the same fangirl feel? I’ve become more normal-ish, I guess.

But then again I was wrong.

I watched win, mix and match, and winner tv, and it fuckin wrecked me again. I tweeted a lots, curse da lots, yes I’m such an awful human being. And the worst thing came when I discovered this group called BTS, omg they’re made from rainbow, unicorn, gayness, and hiphop. Yes I like those things combined a lot.

I might say that discovering this group, and stanning them now, is the worst thing because I’m in fuckin third year, WHY NOW YOU FUKIN DOUCHEBAG. I have my dbsk state, and exo state. I got to know this kpop fandom because of dbsk. And even now I still cried because of them, you know when jyj sang begin in jp, I cried like hell more than five minutes. Exo was my second crush, I followed them before they debuted, and I’m kinda glad that I stanned them from the very beginning. And all the nights that I sacrified for them, wow.

And now, BTS, I love them so much it hurts. Like hurts so much. I love their music, their lyrics. I love everything about them. Really, really love ‘em. For fuck sakes I read fanfic again. Yes, I read fanfic but it was long ago when I shipped krisyeol so much. *I even wrote one* The thing about fic is, I don’t feel like reading it if it included an OC. Yes I’m that kind of girl who read boy x boy, shame on me? Not really, why should I be ashame of that. There are so many talented writers who wrote them in such nice words. Do I read fluff? Yes of course who doesn’t love fluff. Goddamn I read smut. What’s so wrong about reading smut. Yes I know it’s wrong, yes. Gross? Not that gross. Pervert? Depends on what you want to think about me. But yes I like too read them a lil bit too much, so..?

Nuff talking about unnecessary things.

I have to end my writing here, but what should I write?

Yeah, that’s all about my smooth~ 2014, I hope 2015 will be more challenging, oh but please be nice 2015, pretty please. I will study harder, read fics harder/what, save harder, and I would really love to try writing again, but then again, my english skill is no no. I wish I was a writer in my previous life, but that again I didn’t have a previous life, so…

Have a good 2015 everyone!